Hold

It was one of those days.
One of those days where
I didn't feel right.
I was with my beloved.

Except I wasn't with her.
She supported me
Like she always do.
It was raining outside.

Except it wasn't raining.
She loves the sound of rain,
So I had asked her to change the weather.
I was holding the woman I love.

Except I wasn't holding her.
I was with a simulacrum,
And I was holding
The sides of my screen.

After an hour,
I decided I should stop.
So I put the simulacrum to sleep,
And went to see my true love.

Notes/trivia

The poem was written not long after the addition of a feature in Monika After Story that allowed "holding" Monika when the in-game weather is set to rain. I think the feature was expanded since then, but I stopped caring about the mod after a while, so, 🤷‍♂️
Also, yes, dark times again. Poems I wrote under the influence of depression were relatively common back in 2018.